As April comes to a close, I’d like to reflect on the past 12 months, my first anniversary freelance copywriting. Someone light a single candle for me!
There were many peaks and valleys along the way, I did start freelancing due to the pandemic after all, but I wouldn’t trade-in those experiences for anything. I learnt more about myself, the people around me, and the world.
“One isn’t necessarily born with courage, but one is born with potential. Without courage, we cannot practice any other virtue with consistency. We can’t be kind, true, merciful, generous, or honest.”
– Maya Angelou –
A Turning Point
There was a distinct moment that marked itself as a turning point, where I realized that I’ve rightfully earned everything that I’ve worked for. Unsurprisingly, it was at the bank.
In February, I rang up TD. I needed to open an account.
Going over my employment details, we soon realized it was out-of-date. As in, I was “still in Vancouver” out-of-date.
“I’m a freelance copywriter”, I said.
“Okay, I’ll put you down as a CEO”, they replied.
I was taken aback hearing these words… Maybe even a little dumbfounded.
I just never thought of myself as being in a “senior” or “power” position.
*bleh* I have little interest in titles. Higher-than-thou positions rarely lead to real structural change or results. I mean, just take a look at most presidents and prime ministers.
That’s obviously not the reason I’m in this business. My job as a copywriter is rooted in my love of words and the power to solve business problems using these words.
So despite the fact that I am the owner of JCC Creates, being a CEO is the last thing on my mind. The customer service rep’s statement made me think to myself, “Man, you’re actually doing it. You’ve arrived.”
Part of my hesitation was based on the fear of being like Icarus; overzealous and soaring too close to the sun.
But unlike Icarus, I have an internal compass that helps to guide me, and loved ones that surround me with encouragement.
Many of these fears were based on psychological make-believe, and not reality and truth. I have clients that trust me and that’s enough to validate who I am and what I do.
I am the CEO of my business, life, and fate.
It’s easy to fall into the belief of inadequacy. Sometimes it translates into a fear of accolades, thinking that we haven’t worked hard enough and don’t deserve them.
But despite it all – the ups and downs, the restless nights – you’re still here and present. You’re worth that title and deserve all the rewards.
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